soo what's been going on with me lately..
ive been working at wendy's.. interesting place.. i like some of the people, but lately a few have become to irritate me. one of them in particular. she tells me she's gonna come over to hang (her idea keep in mind) so i don't make further plans. time goes by, she doesn't show up or call.. and doesn't answer the phone.. so i see her again today and i say "hey what's up i thought you were coming over yesterday" and she says "yea i thought so too..but then i didn't." soo that puts her on my bad side, and it seems she didn't understand why. i didn't blatantly ignore her after that point. she didn't like.. break my heart or anything.. she just yaknow... sucks now. she's one of those people on my list that i just don't really feel like talking to because they either, 1. are annoying and stupid and don't have anything interesting to say, 2. piss me off, which nothing in the world pisses me off more than ditching me, or 3. just never caught my attention.
so i said, "okay.. awesome" in a very sarcastic manner.. she gets all confused and responds with "what? what's the big deal?" as if I was actually making a big deal out of it... so I say "well.. the thing is.. you said you wanted to hang and you made plans... i would expect that you would might actually follow through with these plans" and she gives me this totally cool, rad, "i'm-freaking-hot" kind of answer: "you should never expect with me" then there was some more dialogue after that and i ended up just walking away
anyway she continued to try and joke around with me, but that just annoyed me. It's a shame she had to be so inconsiderate, because i really kinda liked her
So I been living by myself in Romeo for just about half the summer, my mom is coming back for my last week here. My sister lives in phoenix now and my dad still works out of ft. lauderdale.
i realized last night that stumbleupon has got to be the coolest thing on the internet
pretty sure im developing carpel tunnel in my right wrist.. i hate it. i think i should just have my entire right arm amputated.. it's been causing me nothing but trouble since the 5th grade
i been developing a lot of nasty habits lately that i really need to cut out.. i don't need to go into further detail on that one... moving on
ive been wandering around romeo at ungodly hours of the night.. it's interesting the kinda people you actually pass by.. when you actually do pass by people anyway.. otherwise it's dead.. it reminds me of a few instances back around when i was in high school on midwinter break. we made it a yearly tradition to spend the week up in Elk Rapids (on the bay near Traverse city). sometimes my dog would need to be walked real late at night, so my mom would send me out the door with her. It would be well below freezing, and the sky would be completely clear. Elk Rapids, being a very dimly lit town, would hardly cause any sort of light distortion. you could see just about half a million stars. The snow would always be at least a foot or so tall. And the roads, although plowed, still would have a remaining white coat. The best part, though, is the silence. The only thing I would hear is my footsteps and the quiet breeze through the tops of the trees.
Now it's been nothing like that here.. but the deadness at night still reminds me of it and makes me reminiscent.
After I leave my home in Romeo to head back to Marquette, my mom tells me she's going to be renting it out again. SOO about a week before i leave I have to spend every day moving and cleaning and packing etc. etc. THEEN when i DOO come back to romeo I'll be spending my nights in the wonderful little office we have over at mainstreet apartments.. If and when(real good chance) I come back to romeo for the summer, I've been told that I have to rent my own apartment over there at a reduced rate because they caann't have me be living in the office for such a long period.. but it shouldn't be a problem. I don't wanna deal with living around a bunch of office crap anyway. Biggest bummer about that though is that at the end of the summer, the garage will be shut down. It's gonna be tough for me.. it was a good run while it lasted i suppose. Seems that just as soon as I get comfortable somewhere I'm forced to leave.. truly disappointing.
With all these changes all the time, I have no clue where I actually belong. It's been racking my brain. I don't know if I belong in Romeo, if I belong in Marquette, or somewhere else I haven't set roots in yet. I know I tend to be more content in marquette, but I think that's largely because I've learned not to become too involved/attached with/to anyone/anything. so therefor no one gives me any trouble. In Romeo, I have a knack for getting myself into a bunch of bullshit. People pissing me off, me pissing people off, people walking all over me, me getting into trouble, and just making all the same mistakes over and over and over again. From thinking about that it seems obvious that I need to get my ass outta Romeo, but that doesn't necessarily mean that I belong in Marquette.
I told my parents the other day that I wanted to make myself independent from them.. Meaning I pay my own way entirely. They've been paying my car insurance for the last couple years (it's been ungodly high for no good reason and I never thought to do anything about it until now) so I'm switching car insurance probably tomorrowish.. we'll see how I'm feeling. I'm sick of knowing the fact that if I didn't have my parents there to help move me along financially I would be carless and hungry.. it's not right i say.
so.. you might wonder why I'm feeling nostalgic. Trying listening to this and not being overwhelmed with nostalgia:
This is another one that always gets me:
I don't know why, but when I hear those songs it makes me feel nostalgic.. not usually nostalgic of anything in particular.. just the general feeling comes over me. there is one memory, though, that always seems to pop in there when i hear this kind of stuff.